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Friday, September 29, 2006 |
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Quiet Friday evening
Finally taking a bit of breather.. Thats it for all the task due this week..
Quiet Friday evening eh.. While most people finished up with their work and planned for their weekends with their loved ones, party animals are starting to gather their brethen to the hottest club in town.. Well... I'm cooping myself up in this small little cell of mine. Blog surfing... friendster browsing... yahoo fantasy soccer researching... Sorting out mp3s... Viewing photos relieving those wonderful memories... I tried everyting I could to stop myself from spiralling out of control again...
It was really quiet.. too quiet for a friday |
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Thursday, September 28, 2006 |
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Coming to an end of a busy week.. Things are surely going faster now.. Stats test, 2 biology write up, 2 more chemistry report lining up next week.. It's tough eh...?? When you are facing it alone without any support without any encouragement.. nah.. nothing is harder than dealing with my own pathetic state of mind..
There's no aim or objectives.. I'm just doing the work in accordance to the assigned dateline... before i knew it..exams will be here.. In about another month or so.. I'll be back home.. Singapore.. I know my family and all my buddies miss my presence.. but recently I just dun feel like returning anymore.. I just wanna hole up here... What would be my objective for going back...?? What am I gonna do back home..?? Would I be destructive?? Would I do things that I won't even forgive myself... or would I self-destruct.. You are doing fine.. looking good.. No worries.. the flight back home have not been booked... I guess i would be staying put here....
I'm restricting myself.. I'm holding it back... I've not dial that number for 2 days... I made myself invisible.. I'm hiding.. I'm sure it will do more good den harm to the others... |
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006 |
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The more I tried to erase... The more I remember...
Gonna be a busy week..
Just had 2 of my bio quiz done today..
Physic test tomorrow...
And 2 Chemistry lab report due this Thurs and Friday..
Thanks Mic for your recommemdation.. Finally got November Chopin.. Hei Se Mao Yi was nice..
ALthough most of the time you can't make out what Jay's singing but after taking a closer look at the lyrics and some hard listening.. the lyrics for that song was really meaningful..
Going back to Physic...
The more I tried to erase... The more I remember
A day without a word from you... Kinda hard to get by... |
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Friday, September 22, 2006 |
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Friday evening...
Alone at home....
Bored...
Nothing to do..
Dun wish to interupte others..
Went to the glass sliding door of my balcony...
Using my breath trying to relived that moment that the heart was drawn...
How stupid can I get... |
This song was aired over the radio today...
Every word and chord struck me...
I have listened to this song umpteen times...
But it never sounded like this before... |
That feeling is back and its overwhelming... Back to that lil room where memories came back to haunt me once again..
Today, my housemate's girlfriend left perth.. returning to Singapore after a 1 week holiday.. So nice of her to take leave off her work to visit him.. brought him lots of stuff.. and I could see that she had provided ZQ with much joy and laughter. Although he is have some tests this week, ZQ still took time to bring her just around perth..
Every thing they did.. How they respond when called upon... How they sulk when come to packing up lugga... How they choose the food from the menu... Are just too similar... or its just my imagination..
How does ZQ felt today at the airport?? How would they part?? With a kiss and " see you back home soon"??
Who would understand the feeling of last hug and kiss?? and knowing life won't be the same again... Who could feel the pain of wishing someone joy and happiness knowing that they couldn't be the provider..
Such a long blog today.. the nite is still cold... the feeling is still here... the pain is ............... |
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006 |
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Test of my inner self again...
Presently, you are trying to break away from a situation that is causing you considerable worry and concern. Things are getting on top of you and you are feeling depressed almost to breaking point. Obviously there must be a way out - but at this time the solution seems to be escaping you.
You want to 'get away from it all' and as a consequence you appear to be sullen and introverted and refuse to get involved in any discussion or arguments which could aggravate the situation.
Accept the fact that 'as you feel - so your body will respond' and 'pretend' to the world about you that everything is going beautifully as, if you act as if 'all is going well' everything will, whether you believe it or not, work out as you would like it to.You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet.
You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.
Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.
For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.
In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured. |
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Friday, September 15, 2006 |
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It still hurts... as I back down...
Even though I dun wish to...
I dun wan to complicate it..
Three? why not just One...
I'll be the One.. |
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Thursday, September 14, 2006 |
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Diving At Rottnest Island...
Location: Australia , Rottnest Island (Indian Ocean)
Dive sites: Roe Reef and Jackson rock
Conditions: High swell, strong current, strong wind, 18 degree C, Viz~ 10m
Highlights: 1m wing span sting ray ( no tail.. dunno why)
Use underwater scooter ( those mechanical propellor, they called it scooter)
Drop my weight belt (But picked it up from the ocean floor myself later.. Tyco)
Both dives without DM.. haha.. (2 advance and a basic 3 man tag team)
Kinda good experience for a beginner like me although i held an advance diving certification.. Cold water.. even a 5mm wetsuit dosn't really help..hmm... Oceanic dive gear seems not bad too.. but i still prefer the design of Cressi-sub..
However, theres not fun without you.... and I dun think you would like cold water too..
Hope u'll enjoy your Basic open water..
PS: Some underwater skills to learn are tough but not as tough as snowboarding.. |
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006 |
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I'm coming out of my cage And I've been doing just fine Gotta gotta be down Because I want it all It started out with a kiss How did it end up like this It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss Now I'm falling asleep And she's calling a cab While he's having a smoke And she's taking a drag Now they're going to bed And my stomach is sick And it's all in my head But she's touching his-chest Now, he takes off her dress Now, letting me go And I just can't look its killing me And taking control Jealousy, turning saints into the sea Swimming through sick lullabies Choking on your alibis But it's just the price I pay Destiny is calling me Open up my eager eyes' Cause I'm Mr Brightside I never... I never... I never... I never... I never... The Killers, Mr Brightside.. |
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Monday, September 11, 2006 |
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Start of the 1 week break...
The weekend was a tiring one... kicked start with a 7km jog and gym in the Sat morning... swim in the evening... Ended with some sake at a jap eating place and I couldn't agree more that warm sake was rather good in such a chilly weather... but not good enough to knock me out... I felt it does more harm den good to my mental self... confusing nite...
Sunday wassn't much better, went to bed at 0330 after a movie marathon consisting of The Brother Grimms, Submerged, Windtalker... but the usual staring into the celing.. accompained by an some random hot streak of..........................
Looking at those 'stuff' lying on my bed, wad should I do with them... Down the chute maybe a better option..... |
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Friday, September 08, 2006 |
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Its Friday.. 1 week break lining up...
Thats mean work load gonna kick up to a higher gear.. After the study break.. my chemistry labs will start.. And I'm still finding 'myself'.. if i failed to do so... i dunno how am i gonna survive the hectic schedule coming up next...
What should i do during my break?? This time round the feeling is so much different from last semester......... Wad should I do??
Dun... Dun speak.. Dun say a word... Stop telling me to enjoy myself... Let my hair down... or Sit back and relax during the break...
You knew... you should know that I not enjoying my moment in Australia...
Everything was just motions without motives...
Replaced.... Everything was replaced... living in the shadow of the orgin.....
They still served the same purpose dun they?? But do they have the same meaning...
Bourbon is just a variation of the Orginal Scotch Whisky........ |
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006 |
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Recently, it seems that there is a sudden change of wind over here.. the wind was much stronger and chiller.. at nite the temperature even drop to a low of 2 degree... winter is over and spring is here.. however, it does not seems the case...
This freakish weather some how is reflected on my mood swings... feeling really depress...
did not study for Stats test... handed in a blank answer script.. yea blank... this is the first time in my(6 pri + 4 sec + 3 poly) 13 years of formal education.. Gym wassnt good.. cut short my monday session.. skipped my warm-up, skipped my usual 20min jog/cycle.. and left after several sets of benchpress and dips without even breaking a sweat... even doing house work was bad.. cut myself while chopping onions.. thats quite a terrible cut... luckily my fingers are intact..
Just ended the call with her.... my dishevelled mind started spinning again...
why.. the twisted hands of fate....
why do U wanna do this?? Wad do U wanna made me suffer?? Why the change of wind??
One in pain can sleep...
But One who inflicted pain can't...
I'm in pain but ............ |
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Monday, September 04, 2006 |
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why!!! why!!!
why am i still hurting so much inside......
TJ says 'follow your heart...'
my heart is still crying..
But why cant u be more sensitive...
Sorry.. maybe its just myself..
Anyway, u are not obligated to...
No one understand.. No one cares... No one will... |
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Sunday, September 03, 2006 |
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Stats test tomoro... but I'm still here bloggin away.. online surfing.. doing bo liao stuff that will guarantee my failure tomor..
Restless.. restless... can't sit down and study...
Even a hot shower cannot calm my nerves..
Quote of the day: A silent man is an emotional man... |
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Nom: hEnryk
age: 22
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